23.4.11

NY7 - Vanity

Many many people sneaking strange glances at me on the street and the subway, in bookstores and cafes. Brief visual interactions that appear neither appreciative nor critical. Recognition, mostly, with a tinge of either embarrassment or bemusement, as though they'd all seen me in some seedy internet sex-tape or silly YouTube video. Oh how I hope it is the latter. Or perhaps, much better, we're all simply feeling observant and brave, noticing each other and interested enough to stare a little. I don't mind. I do it all the time. Bright pink boat shoes and slim progress into 2666. Thick-knit rust-coloured scarf and an equally thick, spring-yellow copy of something published by Gotham Writers Workshop; extra cilantro. Grey-sweatshirt genius slipping out a SoHo street door. Still, I feel I am being watched. Like that guy whose life turns out to be a reality TV show, and his bright blue skies a well-painted backdrop. Hope these blossoms I've been looking up at aren't made of styrofoam.

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